I'm just SOOOO fat!
That's right, I'm fat. Your resident porker here, eating and taking it in like I always do. But I'm not fat in the perverbial sense, it's different you know. I'm full of all the crap and bullshit that people, be they friends or significant others, have been feeding me over the years. Why have I allowed myself to become obese with crap. I mean come on Elton!!! I've taken in all the abuse, all the drama, all the heartache, all the pain, and some other things too!! (MY friends know what I mean.) The problem isn't that I've taken in these things, the problem is that I won't let them go. I'm just fat.
Being fat has meant that I've had to carry all this crap around everywhere I go, in every relationships, through every friendship,whenver I meet anyone new, and "I just don't know how I feel about that!!!" Year after year I've added on pound after freaking pound of "fat" and to tell you the truth, It's all my own DAMN fault. I carry all this crap around with me and it makes me prejudge the people I love. I'm a pessimist at heart and I always assume the worst in everything and everybody, mainly because of past experinces and indiscretions. I'm sick of being fat; time to shed a few pounds. Who says bulemia is a bad thing!
It's time to throw it all up. I'm in a rather new relationship and it's time to shed all these pounds of "fat" that I've gathered over the years. It's time for the old slim and trim Elton to come out. I've been in the game since Labor Day 1994 and you can only imagine what 12 years of accumulating fat can do to a brother. Time to let it all go. So what I've been hurt.....so what I've been disappointed.....so what I've been cheated.....so what I've had my world turned upside down.....so what people are bastards.....SO WHAT!!!! It happens to everyone. It's time me to let that shyt go. I think that's maybe why my past relationships didn't work out. We all know that truthfully, no on wants to date a "fat" person, it's unattractive. So from now on, I'm gonna resort to bulemia; when bad things happen, I'm just gonna get rid of it. I'd like to thank my friends for putting up with me and my obesity problems for so long.
For those of you keeping score, yes, it's been a long time since I updated my blog and I have been through a very painful and bitter breakup and am now HAPPILY in a new relationship. I'll do my best to keep up to date on my posting. THERE'S JUST NEVER ENOUGH TIME!!!!!!!!!
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posted by E. Lewis @ 10:05 AM
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